In Midst of the Dark

It's useless, there's no way to be happy again!

I am a failure!

I don't deserve anything of this world!

I'm useless!

No one should love me!

I Hate myself!!!!!!

And now, I have kept myself in the dark,

this is where I am suppose to be,

All my life, all I could feel is pain!

I can no longer be happy...

Never!

I prayed to you,

talked to you,

asked for your help,

and you have said,

that whatever I ask, you shall grant

But still, you kept yourself silent,

Why? Why have you forsaken me?

Why did you leave me?

Why did you let this happen to me?

Why did you do this to me?

Answer me!!!!

My child, I was silent because I wanted you to realize something,

I wanted you to learn from all your mistakes,

I have never forsaken you,

I have never left you,

It was you who did all those.

I gave you all the love,

all the love that you could possibly want

and even everything that you have desired from the start,

All i wanted was for you to be in the right path,

but you kept on going for the wrong one,

I permitted you to get hurt,

because it was the only way for you to realize,

it is the only way for you to learn,

If you think that you have been so hurt,

have you ever thought of how I felt?

I gave you everything that you wanted,

your life, your family, all the riches in the world,

but all I ever ask in return are two things,

your love and your faith towards me,

I don't even get a single "thank you" from you,

You thought that I have never done anything right for you,

have you ever thought of how great are the things I gave you?

How beautiful you are when you first came into this world?

How blessed are you to have a mother and a father?

How fortunate you are to finish college in an executive school?

How about the food that you eat?

How about the job that you have?

and most of all,

How about the light that shined upon you when you were engulfed in darkness?

Yet, you consider everything I gave you as a worthless piece of junk.

You put too much hate on your life when things doesn't go your way,

If you hate everything in your life, even your life itself,

then maybe I should just take away your life instead,

and let those who suffers worst have it instead...

When you prayed and asked me for something,

and yet you did not receive,

Have you considered doing anything for me in return?

Have you ever thought of finding a way to return that blessing?

Have you ever thought of me when you turned your back against me?

Have you ever thought of showing your gratitude towards me?

Have you ever thought of all the pain I have endured just for you?

You didn't have to shed blood and give up your life for somebody else,

I gave you everything you wanted,

but still you blame me for all the bad things you have done?

Lastly, have you ever thought of thinking twice before you act?

Have you....

(he went to him, and hugged him, then cried)

I'm so sorry....!

I never hated you my son,

In fact,

I kept on loving you despite of all the pains,

for you are my son,

and a Father, would never let his children alone,

for I have loved you for who you are,

cause you are everything to me,

and you mean so much to me,

all I ever ask, is for your love.....

I love you, Father.....!

and I have and will always love you, my child....