Happy Incomplete and Melancholic Birthday to me,

Thank you Lord kahit di gaanong kasaya etong araw na toh (November 26, 2011)...this was suppose to be my debut, a day nung bata pa ako na gusto kong icelebrate ng may isang malakeng party and stuff,...but due to financial constraints, i guess everything shattered...but I accept...


And kahit wala akong handa, okay na rin siguro ako, kahit kame lang ni mami magce2lebrate..
unlike before, na naghahanda si papa or kahit konting salu2 kaya pa, or maybe yung tipong pe2rahin ko na lang tas manli2bre ako ng mga kaibigan ko, pero okay lang, at least kahit kaunting amount lang binigay ni mami sakin, maiaambag ko na yun sa iniimpon ko para makabili ako ng keyboard....


kahit hindi pa rin ako kinakausap ng best friend ko, okay na rin,


kahit wala si papa,


kahit wala si best friend


kahit walang cake,


kahit walang gifts mula sa ibang tao,


kahit eto yung pinaka unang birthday q na incomplete at super melancholic


muli, okay lang po


pero sana bago matapos itong taon na eto,
maging maayus na ang lahat,


yun po ang Birthday Wish ko Lord,wala na pong iba....


maraming2 salamat po, at for 21 years buhay pa ako, kahit nagkakasakit ako at unti2 nakukuha ko sakit ng magulang ko, magalak ko pa ring tinatanggap ang lahat ng ito sa kabila ng lahat,


naway ang lahat ay umayon sa iyong mga pinaplanu....


muli maraming2 salamat po....


Tis,

from the yee,


to the haw,


:'(

If only,

Why do people hate?
Why do other people hate all things that God has made?
Is it wrong to love?


Is it that hard to love and care for the creations of God?
Such animals, why do people treat them with cruelty?


kung ako man ay papalaring maging isang vet, (tulad ng pinapangarap simula pagkabata,)


hinding hindi ako papayag na may mga hayop na masasaktan,


hinding-hindi!


Hindi ako galit, hindi ko lang matanggap yung mga taong pati mga hayop pinagdidiskitahan pa


Nawa'y sila'y mapatawad ng Dyos sa mga ginagawa nilang kabulustugan,


please lang, sa lahat ng makakabasa nito,


kahit ayaw niyo mag-alaga ng hayop sa bahay,


at least show some care to the creatures,


ginawa rin sila ng Dyos,


at kahit gaano man bali-baliktarin ang mundo, kasama natin sila sa ayaw at gusto naten....

Tis,

from the YEE


to the HAW!!!!!

Gifts,...

There was a child who was best friends with her neighbor.
The neighbor was rich, able to provide themselves anything that they want and need. The girl's family can only provide their daily needs, they can buy other necessities, but not that much. She always see her best friend holding incredible stuffs. The other girl had everything she could have, brand new set of clothes, gadgets, money, etc.


Whenever the two would play together, the best friend would always share the great stuffs she has, the girl could only share the not-so-great-stuff she has.


One day the girl asked her mom, "Mommy, how come my best friend has the stuff in the whole wide world?"


Mom,"What do you mean by all the stuff?"


Girl,"Well she has a DSLR with 2 camera lenses, a Blackberry, bags and clothes from other countries, and Ipod 4th Gen., and she goes to a very exclusive school, oh did I mention that she could go to other countries as well? Oh and addition to that, she has many great sets of friends, and her family is complete. She has a mom,and also a dad. Her mom works at other countries, plus a family friend who taught her most of the lessons in life, plus, she's more mature than I am."


Mom,"And what do you have?"


Girl, "I have 2 cellphones, one is a very old model of Nokia, which is phased out already, the other phone is already good as junk, i have no cameras, my clothes and bags are bought locally, I go to a small school, but not that exclusive, I can't go to other countries as well, I don't have a dad, I have a mom and she's in front of me, I only have few great sets of friends, my family is incomplete. And no family friend that taught me some important things in life."


Mom, "Do you not like what you have?"


Girl, "I do, but I envy her,"


Mom, "Sweeties, do not envy people for what they have, that's very wrong. I may not be able to give you the best stuff in the whole world, but I have given you much love more than you have ever known. Her mom is away because of work, and it is not a very good thing, it makes her sad, always. At least I am here and watched you grow, even your father."


Girl,"I see... Sorry mommy,"


Mom, "I'm not mad baby, what did I told you about being poor?"


Girl, "Be the poor and love to be poor,"


Mom, "At least by now, you are learning to become independent, little by little you are. Even if we don't have that much money, at least you know how it feels to be poor. And when my time is up, at least you will know how to adjust yourself, and you can understand how the poor lives. Be happy of what you have baby,
at all times." The mom smiles and touched her child's shoulder.


Girl, "I will mommy." she smiled.


Mom, "Oh, tell you what, I know something that no one ever had, not even your best friend."


Girl, "Can you tell me?"


Mom, "At all aspects, you know what love is, even without reading about it. You know how to care for a  person, and care for them without asking for anything in return. Sometimes they may not see it, but the important thing is, you shared what you received.You know how to look back with gratuity to the person who made you feel important, plus you can write all the stuff that comes into your mind and make people feel what you feel right now. And most of all, you know how to say thank you. That my child, is God's greatest gift to you. It is far more greater than Blackberry or any other stuffs."


The girl smiled and hugged her mom while she cries with tears of joy...


>>>End<<<


Tis,

from the YEE


to the HAW!!!!!

For Your Noche Buena

a typical Filipino Noche Buena is always composed of keso de bola, and of course, the one and only....
Christmas Ham....


so, the pic above is familiar sa mgadati ko ng readers, that's because yan ang christmas ham na ginawa namen nung Internaitonal Cuisine 2: European Cuisine class namen nung ako'y isang 3rd year student....
yan ang kauna-unahang experience kong gumawa ng sariling ham (courtesy of the recipe of the NIP...)
although medyo matamis nga daw, pero keber, masarap naman daw sabe ng mga prof na tumikim


ngayon, first time ko lang din tong gagawin,
is to reveal the recipes that I have been keeping all my life,
first time ko lang to okay? since paparating na muli ang pasko
kaya, the season of giving is coming also,


and of course, it is part of the values I have learned is to be generous....
and here it is,


my recipe for quick cured ham:
(originally galing to sa Nutrition Institute of the Philippines pero since may ginawa na akong revisions, akin na toh, hehehe, okay lang naman yun, kase version mo na yun, walang kaso ng plagiarism dun)

Quick Cured Ham

Ingredients:

1 kg pork pigue skinless, boneless

‘

Pumping pickle solution:

½ cup water, chilled

1 tbsp salt refined

1 tsp curing salt

1 tbsp sugar, refined

½ tbsp phosphate

½ tsp vitamin c powder

½ tbsp ham spice

1 tbsp isolate

1 tsp BF Blend

Dry cure mixture:

2 ½ cups water

1 ½ cups sugar

¼ tbsp phosphate

¼ tsp vitamin c powder

Cooking ingredients:

2 cups brown sugar

3 cups water

1-2 cups pineapple juice

½ cup anisado wine

1-2 pcs bayleaf

3-5 pcs clavo de comer

3-4 strands dried oregano

¼ tsp cinnamon powder

1 med bottle 7up

Procedure:

1. Prepare 50% of the pumping pickle solution and dry cure mixture.
2. Inject into lean portion, only 1 inch apart.
3. Massage for even distribution of the pickle solution.
4. Apply dry cure mixture onto the fat and lean portion.
5. Cure at room temp for 8 – 10 hours or 7-9 days at refrigeration temp.
6. Wash and hang with abaca twine for shape.
7. Cook with the recommended ingredients for 1 ½ hours.
8. Pull it and remove abaca twine and freeze it.
9. Pack and freeze it.

I guess...

It has been really a tough life I had this past days/weeks and months...
Name it so, thesis, COP (Chefs on Parade), projects, etc.....
because of this emotional distress, i have been carried away by problems which i have firmly believed that are non-sense, where I said that i would step on this shenanigans and will not take the best of me.


I guess too much stress really consumes you for who you really are,
and i guess I am one of those that were consumed,


long before I went back to school, when I temporarily stopped schooling...
I fell deeply in love with the best genre in the whole wide world,
some people call it weird, some people call it lame....some people call it a waste of time,


but i don't...




oh well, to cut the story short........




i fell in love, deeply in love with Country Music,


the only genre which i have loved so much which I believe is a mirror of life...or in other words, reality,


and because of too much emotional distress....




i forgot who was the cowboy inside of me,


the one i was proud of, the one who keeps telling people, "Cowboys have manners and they don't interrupt."


I guess i forgot,


and i have a lot of people to thank for that,


and also, because of emotional distress,


i forgot how much I have loved living a country life....


fresh air, cows, chickens, barns, horses, trees... 


far away from the bustling sound of the city,


far away from all the commotion,


and far away from all the stresses that only takes the good out of you,


I guess, "Country" was the reason why I called myself theo in the first place,


the real, and original name of this blog in the beginning,


i guess now is the time,


to go back who I was long before I broke a promise,


back to the one and only casanova that I have loved


Theo's Casanova.....


:)




here's one country song for you fellas

:)

You Know Im A Dreamer

But My Hearts Of Gold

I Had To Run Away High

So I Wouldnt Come Home Low

Just When Things Went Right

It Doesnt Mean They Were Always Wrong

Just Take This Song

And Youll Never Feel

Left All Alone

Take Me To Your Heart

Feel Me In Your Bones

Just One More Night

And Im Comin Off This

Long & Winding Road

Im On My Way

Im On My Way

Home Sweet Home

Tonight, Tonight

Im On My Way

Im On My Way

Home Sweet Home

You know that i've seen

so many romantic dreams

Up In Lights, Fallin Off

The Silver Screen

My Hearts Like An Open Book

For The Whole World To Read

Sometimes Nothing

Keeps Me Together

At The Seams

Im On My Way

Im On My Way

Home Sweet Home

Tonight, Tonight

Im On My Way

Just Set Me Free

Home Sweet Home

Uhmmm, Im On My Way,

Im On My Way

Home Sweet Home

Yeah, Im On My Way

Just Set Me Free

Home Sweet Home.

Papa..., :,(

Dear Nestor S. Cuenca,


     November na ngayon and malapit na rin ako mag-21. Sayang lang talaga hindi natin nasisilayan ang isa't isa ngayon. Nung October dapat nagpaplano ka na di ba? Kung anu man yung ihahanda mo sa kaarawan ko. Usually di ba tatanungin mo ko kung anu gusto ko spaghetti ba or pancit, syempre ang isasagot ko spaghetti... na paparisan mo ng barbeque, sandwich, and iba pang ulam na paborito ko. Wala po akong handa ngayon eh, bibigyan lang ako ni mami ng konting pera pero hindi ko rin magagamit para manlibre kahit konti, isusubi ko na lang po para makabili ako ng keyboard at makapag piano lessons..... Hindi naman po masama loob ko, tanggap ko naman yung sitwasyon eh, huminto na nga ako ng isang taon, etong simple hindi paghahanda sa birthday ko sasama pa loob ko.. okay lang po yun :)


     Pero habang tumatakbo ang panahon kailangan kong tanggapin na nagbabago ang lahat eh, masakit na masakit sa loob ko nung lumisan ka ng maaga, ayoko mang sabihin pero bakit ikaw pa yung nawala meron namang iba dyan. Tumayo ako at nilabanan yung sakit na yun, sabe ko papatunayan ko sa kanila na mali pagkakakilala nila sakin, na sa lahat ng tao sa angkan natin, ako lang ang maiiba.


     Ginawa ko po lahat ng yun para sa inyo, nagpuyat ako ng ilang araw para lang masagawa yung mga dapat kong gawin. Para mapakita lang po sa inyo na maganda grades ko. Di ba sabi mo, di bale nang isoli ko lahat ng ibinigay mo sakin, basta maging maganda lang grades ko masayang-masaya ka na? Okay naman ang kinalabasan, may konting pasang-awa ako pero wala po akong bagsak.


     Pero aaminin ko po, hindi po ako talagang masaya sa kursong tinahak ko. Kasi lumalabas na masmatino ako sa pagsusulat kesa sa pagluluto, pero huli na ang lahat ng marealize ko yun eh, kaya pinani2ndigan ko na po. Pero okay lang, mukha namang magbubunga ng maganda lahat ng ito eh.


     Siguro alam niyo na rin na kasali ako sa choir di ba? Sorry kase hindi ko nagustuhan and natutunan ang paggitara, masgusto ko magpiano eh. Pero okay lang, matuto lang ako tumudtog, tu2gtugin ko po lahat ng mga kantang minsan ko ng narining sa inyo.


     And papa, wag ka po mag-alala, dala2 ko pa rin lahat ng pangaral mo sakin. Kahit pinapalo mo ko nun dahil sa katigasan ng ulo ko, okay lang po. At least natuto ako. And thank you din po, sa pagtatanggol mo sakin sa tuwing minamata ako ng iba nating kamag-anak.....Na kung pano mo ko pinagmamalaki sa mga kaibigan mo at sa ibang kamag-anak natin. Na kahit sa huling pagkakataon, naipagmalaki mo ko, and kahit wala ka na, nakarating sa akin yung sinabe mo kay tito emi na "Proud na proud si papa mo sayo." Masakit lang kase hindi mo ko nasabitan ng medaly nung tinanghal akong salutatorian...Yung first and ever medal ko sa buong buhay ko, na matagal mo nang pinapangarap db? Hanggang ngayon, nasa cabinet lang yun, nasa kahon, inaantay na ikaw ang magsabit sa akin nun. Hindi ko talaga sinuot kahit nung graduation, kase gusto ko ikaw ang maglagay sa akin.


     Soone noguh din po, ggraduate na ko. Hindi ko man na achieve ang pagiging cum laude pero sinisigurado ko, na sa masteral makukuha ko yang mga achievements na yan, kahit pansamantala lang yan, wala akong pake, basta pipilitin kong magkaroon pa ng isang medal, na nag-aantay na mailagay mo sakin.


     And papa, sorry nga po pala, so sorry po talaga.
     Kase yung isang pangaral mo sakin na, "wag akong matutulog na may taong galit sakin, dahil hindi mo ko pinalaking ganun..." Sorry po kase meron pong galit sakin eh, and hindi ko po alam kung kelan niya ako kakausapin at kung kelan po kame magkakaayus, siya nga po pala best friend ko sa buong mundo. Sorry papa, nahihiya po ako sa inyo, gigising ako sa umaga, magdadasal, kakain ng almusal, at gagawa ng gawaing bahay pero andun yung guilt sa puso ko na merong galit sa akin. Tapos matutulog ako na andun pa rin, although hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na magiging okay din kame, pero nahihiya na po ako sa inyo eh...
Wla akong mapakitang mukha, hindi ko na po alam gagawin ko eh, hiyang-hiya na po ako sa inyo.... sorry po talaga, wag ka po sanang magagalit ah...mahal na mahal po kita papa......, kung okay lang po sana,
pakiusapan mo si Lord...na sana magkaroon na ng way para magkausap kame at magkaayos... nawala ka na po sa akin, and hindi ko na alam kung anong mangyayare sa akin kung pati siya mawawala sa buhay ko.... Ang tanga2 ko naman po kung hahayaan ko na lang, pero papa, sorry po talaga.... hindi ko to nagawa ng tama...sorry po talaga... :'(


     Ingat ka lagi dyan ah, mahal na mahal ka namin ni mami and sorry din po, kase kahit 21 na ko sa makalawa, iyakin pa rin po ako......


     Muli, mahal na mahal ko po kayo,....!

Your loving son,

Rene Martin Damian Cuenca

:'(

IKAW!!!!

bakit ang sarap2 mo?


bakit halos lahat ng tao nagccrave sa yo?


ano bang meron sa yo at talagang nilalasap ka kapag inorder ka,


dahil ba sa keso? sa toppings? or sa dough? or sa lahat ng yun?


come on! tell me!

Look Back,

Looking back to who I was several years ago,

ang laki na pala ng pinagbago ko nuon,

from these:

dati sa aming tahanan kahit mumunti lamang, makikita mo kong nasa sahig lagi

hindi dahil sa kumukuha ako ng dumi or what, pero ako'y naglalaro ng lego,

hehe

hindi ko nilalaro yan ng simpleng pagbuo-buo lang ng mga structures,

but i play that para makagawa ng kwento,

some children uses their imagine to make stories wherein they are the character themselves,

ako, i prefer to make stories using lego wherein i am in control of that world,

would you believe that even the classic "Power Rangers," ginagaya ko using lego?

I mean i make the characters tpos kunwari maglalaban sila and stuff (you know naman the cycle of each episode db? hehe)

or kung hindi man power rangers, kahit yung ibang cartoons na napapanuod ko,

hehe kahit sailormoon haha

another is Family Computer,

sobrakang mahuhumaling sa mga laro nyan, am I right? hehe

bibili ka nung bala sa mall worth 100 pesos, tpos hindi ka na makapag-antay makauwe

tapos isasalpak mo na yung bala at hindi ka na makausap ng matino kapag nagumpisa na yung game,

and kapag hindi gumagana yung bala,

hihipan mo bago mo ulit isa2lpak, hehe

and lastly, nung naglalaro ako sa kalsada,

kahit pawis2 na, sige2 pa rin,

laro lang ng laro,

wala kameng pake, 

basta mageenjoy kame,

pero pagdating ng 6pm,

uwi na, hehe

oras na para manuod ng teleserye, haha

good times, good times hehe

:)

Hope

To you my dear best friend,

I understand that whatever I have done this past days really offended you and really pissed you off.

I have to be honest because I was pissed of as well.

But the next day, i wanted to speak with you but you resisted.

First and foremost, I am really sorry....

I know you will forgive me, maybe not now, but maybe sooner, or maybe never.

But i don't believe that you won't,

cause I know deep down you're still there,

I know that the person that I trusted the most is still down there,

locked in that hideous thing that surrounds you ever since you have guilty of yourself,

but know this,

kahit gaano ka pa nagagalit sa akin,

please just keep in mind,

that you will always be my best friend,

the only best friend i ever had, the one i have prayed to God to have,

although marami na tayong ups and downs, but among all those, what's happening between us is the worse,

pero okay lang, no matter how many times you reject me as your friend,

kahit gaano mo ko kalayo pumunta para magkaron ka ng space,

i will do it for you

pero kahit gaano mo ko tiisin, alam kong babalik rin ang dati,

kahit gaano kasakit ang sugat na matamo ko mula sa yo,

okay lang....kase alam kong hindi ikaw yun,

kilala ko ang best friend ko,

alam kong hindi niya ko iiwan,

at hinding-hindi ako pwedeng magkamali sa pagkakakilala ko sa yo,

kahit anong taboy mo, andito pa rin ako sa tabi mo,

handang tulungan ka, damayan ka, sa kahit anong problemang dinadala mo,

and kagaya ng pinangako ko,

kahit anong mangyare,

hindi kita iiwan,

That I will always be with you,

kahit gaano pa kasama or kapanget ang ugaling ipapakita mo sakin,

or kahit gaano mo pa ako iignore,

hinding-hindi ako aalis,

kase kaibigan mo ko, at nangako ako sa yo, at alam kong alam mo na,

never akong nang-iwan

 I don't hate you for what you doing right now, who am i to hate someone who has done great things in my life,

of course, i have faith na one day, kakausapin mo ulet ako,

leaving all those pains and hurts behind us,

and starting new, and much stronger...

I will wait for the day kung saan magbabalik ang dati,

and one thing that everyone must know,

I am not just a man of faith

but I am a man of Hope,

i have great hopes,

that someday that my best friend and I will be of the best of friends again,

someday, somewhere, i know we'll meet again....

my best friend and I... :)

never akong nawalan ng pag-asa,

kaya anong mangyare,

ako pa rin ang kaibigan mo :)